actuali i so hope can tgt wif u .. but i feel y always is me zhu dong .. maybe u got miss me .. but u oso miss ur gf bah .. realli not fair for me .. i wan u jus got me .. i dun understand .. last time u always say u hope got a gf that always can pei u .. i can do it le .. but u dunwan me too .. i duno y my nu li always being thrown by u .. but i still love u .. always let my tear fall and fall .. i duno when i jus can 4get u .. maybe 1 yr/2 yrs/3 yrs or even more ..
i still rmb u hold my hand veri tight .. u said u scare i will fly ki .. i realli touched for that .. i happy and felt sweet .. i so hope that feel always in my heart and mind .. but u canot appreciate it .. and still wan another heart .. u r too greedy .. but i still love u !!! y ? i oso hope can go to genting wif u again .. there nobody noe us .. we can hold our hand, pak toh to anywhr .. nobody can stop us .. i oso wan to go any pulau wif u .. pulau langkawi, pulau tioman, pulau redang, pulau pangkor ...
but if u dunwan to appreaciate me and wad i did .. that dream nvr become true .. and always still is my dream and inside my mind .. i realli nvr regret to noe u .. u gv me many happiness although sadness oso hv .. but u r my 1st bf .. my 1st time all gv u .. jus left the last one .. maybe u prefer u hv a gf seldom go out wif u, no nid wait u to fetch her, no nid wait to date wif her, u got ur freedom, no nid always go out wif gf, no nid hv a gf always pei u ... maybe this all u want .. but can u realli make ur decision again ? i bu gan xin .. i lose her .. i wan b ur one .. but u throw me alone and chose her .. I DUN UNDERSTAND .. ! wad she hv and wad she did ? i believe she wont better than me and wad she did oso wont more than me .. coz i noe i realli love u one .. we brk and brk and brk , i still love u .. and i always trust our love even far distance oso can kip longer and longer .. wont becoz of u and i nid to go somewhr then i not love u .. NO ! .. i believe my love .. i always wont bian xin .. bian xin de is u nia .. i respect our love .. y u canot ?
u she de to let me cry and cry again mah ? i sometime realli wan become a bad gal .. destroy u two .. but i noe i canot .. this is veri bad one .. but i realli hope u choose me and sry to her .. but most of the time, when i clear about the thg, i noe i shldn't think too much .. and dun try to destroy anythg or revenge wad .. im a guai gal .. i canot do such thg .. i mus zhu4 fu2 .. and wish everyone in love and happiness .. not sad story .. but i canot again .. hais .. love canot b made decision one .. y LOVE so suffer ???
Thursday, October 23, 2008
duno wad to do
i feel veri contradiction
i wanna tgt wif him
but he got " "
i canot like that
if i realli choose to leave him
i noe i sure reluctant
i canot make the decision
wad shld i do now ?
y i nid to think so much for this life ?
i canot jus enjoy my life and b a good gal ok d ?
y i mus suffer like this ?
i wanna tgt wif him
but he got " "
i canot like that
if i realli choose to leave him
i noe i sure reluctant
i canot make the decision
wad shld i do now ?
y i nid to think so much for this life ?
i canot jus enjoy my life and b a good gal ok d ?
y i mus suffer like this ?
Friday, October 17, 2008
miss
i realli miss u, chou pig
...
but i noe i canot
i shld control myself
i told myself
if u nvr brk up wif ur gf, i wont contact wif u anymore
im not cursing u 2
but at least u mus differ our relationship
i dunwan my relationship in complicated again
i sad and sad and sad d ..
i dunwan like this anymore
even i noe u back to pg d ... but i canot c u
i was sad .. but i should calm down .. to dun contact wif u
hais .. so suffer .. y i mus like this ..
all bcoz u, 8th king of egg
smelly chicken egg
hais .. miss u ..
i wanna to msg u
i wanna to ask u many thg
i wanna to tell u many thg
i wanna to acc at ur side
i wanna to hear u
i wanna to c u
i wanna to hug u
i wanna to kiss u
i wanna to touch u
...
but i noe i canot
i shld control myself
i told myself
if u nvr brk up wif ur gf, i wont contact wif u anymore
im not cursing u 2
but at least u mus differ our relationship
i dunwan my relationship in complicated again
i sad and sad and sad d ..
i dunwan like this anymore
even i noe u back to pg d ... but i canot c u
i was sad .. but i should calm down .. to dun contact wif u
hais .. so suffer .. y i mus like this ..
all bcoz u, 8th king of egg
smelly chicken egg
hais .. miss u ..
Thursday, October 16, 2008
impulsion to say: i miss u
i realli got a impulsion to say that i miss u
i opened my skype
i wanna type out: "i miss u"
but i no dare
i noe i can tahan til now
im veri PRO d
i should gv myself a clap
i should continue like this until i 4get him at all
BUSY BUSY BUSY .. ! to 4get him !
i opened my skype
i wanna type out: "i miss u"
but i no dare
i noe i can tahan til now
im veri PRO d
i should gv myself a clap
i should continue like this until i 4get him at all
BUSY BUSY BUSY .. ! to 4get him !
dun LIKE
y like this?
my mood became veri bad
Tomato asked me,"Can i chase u?"
i duno how to answer him
if i said i no feel to him, i scared he canot accept
i told him that i duno and asked him to chase other gals ..
i dunwan hurt any ppl
i veri distracted
in the same time, another guy sms me
he is brayant
he greeted me
then asked me to find him if i got back to my hometown
i declined him by gv some excuses that i back to hometown when got sem brk only
and i jus back for awhile .. few days only
i wont back too long
then he asked me, izit i was intent to dunwan find him
"walao!!!!! .."
i started angry d
i oredi tok wif him carefully d
i dunwan hurt him too
but he still ask me like that
izit he wan me to tell him that i dun like him
even him, i oso 4get him long time ago d
jus except this time he sms me, so i jus rmb who is he ..
he was the one who wanted to gv me bear bear or flower as gift one
coz that time i still showed our msn conversation to the 'pig'
sweat ||
i dun LIKE them
y they wan i become DEVIL and hurt them ?
jus quit by themselves
dun let me be a bad ppl
im not showing off that got ppl chased me and dunwan to do so too
but is i realli dunwan get hurted
i dunwan sad anymore
y im always the person get hurted and sad?
y? y? y? y? .. ?
my mood became veri bad
Tomato asked me,"Can i chase u?"
i duno how to answer him
if i said i no feel to him, i scared he canot accept
i told him that i duno and asked him to chase other gals ..
i dunwan hurt any ppl
i veri distracted
in the same time, another guy sms me
he is brayant
he greeted me
then asked me to find him if i got back to my hometown
i declined him by gv some excuses that i back to hometown when got sem brk only
and i jus back for awhile .. few days only
i wont back too long
then he asked me, izit i was intent to dunwan find him
"walao!!!!! .."
i started angry d
i oredi tok wif him carefully d
i dunwan hurt him too
but he still ask me like that
izit he wan me to tell him that i dun like him
even him, i oso 4get him long time ago d
jus except this time he sms me, so i jus rmb who is he ..
he was the one who wanted to gv me bear bear or flower as gift one
coz that time i still showed our msn conversation to the 'pig'
sweat ||
i dun LIKE them
y they wan i become DEVIL and hurt them ?
jus quit by themselves
dun let me be a bad ppl
im not showing off that got ppl chased me and dunwan to do so too
but is i realli dunwan get hurted
i dunwan sad anymore
y im always the person get hurted and sad?
y? y? y? y? .. ?
星座
Q 6：什麼星座的人最不喜歡受拘束？
第 1名 射手座 1,864 票 24% 第 7名 天蠍座 371 票 4%
第 2名 水瓶座 1,720 票 22% 第 8名 巨蟹座 358 票 4%
第 3名 雙子座 811 票 10% 第 9名 雙魚座 301 票 4%
第 4名 獅子座 516 票 6% 第10名 處女座 214 票 2%
第 5名 天秤座 495 票 6% 第11名 魔羯座 211 票 2%
第 6名 牡羊座 475 票 6% 第12名 金牛座 163 票 2%
Q13：哪個星座的人最易犯桃花？
第 1名 射手座 2,069 票 18% 第 7名 獅子座 588 票 5%
第 2名 水瓶座 1,696 票 14% 第 8名 牡羊座 491 票 4%
第 3名 天秤座 1,445 票 12% 第 9名 魔羯座 404 票 3%
第 4名 雙子座 1,437 票 12% 第10名 金牛座 366 票 3%
第 5名 雙魚座 1,365 票 11% 第11名 處女座 366 票 3%
第 6名 天蠍座 925 票 8% 第12名 巨蟹座 342 票 2%
Q17：哪個星座的人最不容易說出內心的話？
第 1名 天蠍座 1,037 票 19% 第7名 金牛座 353 票 6%
第 2名 水瓶座 757 票 14% 第 8名 雙魚座 264 票 5%
第 3名 魔羯座 &nbs p;594 票 11% 第 9名 天秤座 259 票 4%
第 4名 處女座 434 票 8% 第10名 射手座 258 票 4%
第 5名 巨蟹座 426 票 8% 第11名 獅子座 247 票 4%
第 6名 雙子座 404 票 7% 第12名 牡羊座 171 票 3%
Q18：哪個星座的人最愛腳踏兩條船？
第 1名 雙子座 1,204 票 21% 第 7名 獅子座 302 票 5%
第 2名 水瓶座 1,000 票 17% 第 8名 天蠍座 290 票 5%
第 3名 射手座 828 票 14% 第 9名 牡羊座 188 票 3%
第 4名 天秤座 499 票 8% 第10名 巨蟹座 143 票 2%
第 5名 雙魚座 499 票 8% 第11名 魔羯座 143 票 2%
第 6名 處女座 491 票 8% 第12名 金牛座 134 票 2%
Q25：哪個星座的人最悲觀？
第 1名 處女座 750 票 17% 第 7名 天秤座 263 票 6%
第 2名 雙魚座 718 票 16% 第 8名 水瓶座 185 票 4%
第 3名 巨蟹座 599 票 14% 第 9名 雙子座 122 票 2%
第 4名 魔羯座 568 票 13% 第10名 牡羊座 121 票 2%
第 5名 天蠍座 390 票 9% 第11名 獅子座 109 票 2%
第 6名 金牛座 316 票 7% 第12名 射手座 98 票 2%
Q27：哪個星座最會表現'曖昧不明'的關係？
第 1名 雙魚座 885 票 16% 第 7名 金牛座 391 票 7%
第 2名 天秤座 697 票 12% 第 8名 處女座 348 票 6%
第 3名 水瓶座 608 票 11% 第 9名 巨蟹座 317 票 5%
第 4名 雙子座 544 票 10% 第10名 魔羯座 270 票 4%
第 5名 天蠍座 506 票 9% 第11名 牡羊座 224 票 4%
第 6名 射手座 420 票 7% 第12名 獅子座 213 票 3%
Q29：哪個星座的人最有魅力？
第 1名 天蠍座 1,331 票 17% 第 7名 魔羯座 558 票 7%
第 2名 射手座 1,274 票 16% 第 8名 雙子座 472 票 6%
第 3名 天秤座 903 票 11% 第 9名 獅子座 403 票 5%
第 4名 牡羊座 667 票 8% 第10名 處女座 306 票 3%
第 5名 雙魚座 659 票 8% 第11名 金牛座 285 票 3%
第 6名 水瓶座 577 票 7% 第12名 巨蟹座 285 票 3%
* 想成為你的專屬，守候在你身旁，看著你，喜怒悲傷
* 想成為你的天使，伴隨在你心裡，守護你，一路歸航
after read this horoscope, felt abit right abit wrong
duno .. jus depends on somebody
jusnow i back from steam sauna, fitnessfirst
stepped into my room, suddenly veri miss him
i tot i could put down abit d
actualli not
but nvm, i noe slowly i could 4get him
"wu gui wang ba dan .."
第 1名 射手座 1,864 票 24% 第 7名 天蠍座 371 票 4%
第 2名 水瓶座 1,720 票 22% 第 8名 巨蟹座 358 票 4%
第 3名 雙子座 811 票 10% 第 9名 雙魚座 301 票 4%
第 4名 獅子座 516 票 6% 第10名 處女座 214 票 2%
第 5名 天秤座 495 票 6% 第11名 魔羯座 211 票 2%
第 6名 牡羊座 475 票 6% 第12名 金牛座 163 票 2%
Q13：哪個星座的人最易犯桃花？
第 1名 射手座 2,069 票 18% 第 7名 獅子座 588 票 5%
第 2名 水瓶座 1,696 票 14% 第 8名 牡羊座 491 票 4%
第 3名 天秤座 1,445 票 12% 第 9名 魔羯座 404 票 3%
第 4名 雙子座 1,437 票 12% 第10名 金牛座 366 票 3%
第 5名 雙魚座 1,365 票 11% 第11名 處女座 366 票 3%
第 6名 天蠍座 925 票 8% 第12名 巨蟹座 342 票 2%
Q17：哪個星座的人最不容易說出內心的話？
第 1名 天蠍座 1,037 票 19% 第7名 金牛座 353 票 6%
第 2名 水瓶座 757 票 14% 第 8名 雙魚座 264 票 5%
第 3名 魔羯座 &nbs p;594 票 11% 第 9名 天秤座 259 票 4%
第 4名 處女座 434 票 8% 第10名 射手座 258 票 4%
第 5名 巨蟹座 426 票 8% 第11名 獅子座 247 票 4%
第 6名 雙子座 404 票 7% 第12名 牡羊座 171 票 3%
Q18：哪個星座的人最愛腳踏兩條船？
第 1名 雙子座 1,204 票 21% 第 7名 獅子座 302 票 5%
第 2名 水瓶座 1,000 票 17% 第 8名 天蠍座 290 票 5%
第 3名 射手座 828 票 14% 第 9名 牡羊座 188 票 3%
第 4名 天秤座 499 票 8% 第10名 巨蟹座 143 票 2%
第 5名 雙魚座 499 票 8% 第11名 魔羯座 143 票 2%
第 6名 處女座 491 票 8% 第12名 金牛座 134 票 2%
Q25：哪個星座的人最悲觀？
第 1名 處女座 750 票 17% 第 7名 天秤座 263 票 6%
第 2名 雙魚座 718 票 16% 第 8名 水瓶座 185 票 4%
第 3名 巨蟹座 599 票 14% 第 9名 雙子座 122 票 2%
第 4名 魔羯座 568 票 13% 第10名 牡羊座 121 票 2%
第 5名 天蠍座 390 票 9% 第11名 獅子座 109 票 2%
第 6名 金牛座 316 票 7% 第12名 射手座 98 票 2%
Q27：哪個星座最會表現'曖昧不明'的關係？
第 1名 雙魚座 885 票 16% 第 7名 金牛座 391 票 7%
第 2名 天秤座 697 票 12% 第 8名 處女座 348 票 6%
第 3名 水瓶座 608 票 11% 第 9名 巨蟹座 317 票 5%
第 4名 雙子座 544 票 10% 第10名 魔羯座 270 票 4%
第 5名 天蠍座 506 票 9% 第11名 牡羊座 224 票 4%
第 6名 射手座 420 票 7% 第12名 獅子座 213 票 3%
Q29：哪個星座的人最有魅力？
第 1名 天蠍座 1,331 票 17% 第 7名 魔羯座 558 票 7%
第 2名 射手座 1,274 票 16% 第 8名 雙子座 472 票 6%
第 3名 天秤座 903 票 11% 第 9名 獅子座 403 票 5%
第 4名 牡羊座 667 票 8% 第10名 處女座 306 票 3%
第 5名 雙魚座 659 票 8% 第11名 金牛座 285 票 3%
第 6名 水瓶座 577 票 7% 第12名 巨蟹座 285 票 3%
* 想成為你的專屬，守候在你身旁，看著你，喜怒悲傷
* 想成為你的天使，伴隨在你心裡，守護你，一路歸航
after read this horoscope, felt abit right abit wrong
duno .. jus depends on somebody
jusnow i back from steam sauna, fitnessfirst
stepped into my room, suddenly veri miss him
i tot i could put down abit d
actualli not
but nvm, i noe slowly i could 4get him
"wu gui wang ba dan .."
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
sian = bored
start new sem, i felt veri bored
do wad oso sian
think wad oso sian
eat wad oso sian
c wad oso sian
driving oso sian
wad wad wad .. oso sian ..
sometimes realli miss him
i gv myself 30 marks out of 100 marks
i veri stupid
still miss him
but sometime when i busy i wont miss him like last time d
i felt i would slowly 4get him
like when i busy for playing viwawa, in class, playing basketball ..
recently i joined for basketball as my co-cu activity
although that was not my favourite sport
but basketball OK la ..
i still could accept
jus veri hard for the practice only
after basketball, my whole body sure pain like hell
but i felt satisfy and enjoy, coz i could exercise more and increased my blood pressure
i had low blood pressure
this was my gym trainer's advice that i should exercise and getting stronger
i still rmb that day i went for the steam sauna room wif a tower only by without any jewelleries and clothing
inside veri blur, coz of the steam
my body and face get steam and wet all
i felt relax
wont think anythg d ..
but when i stopped those activities, i oso would think of him again
BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA .. !!!
he smsed me, said that he read my blog
he felt touch .. i din noe wad he touched
WEIRD .. ?? -.- ?
i was blur-ing
today i went to Queensbay to find vacancy
asked Adidas Heritage
she told me that i maybe nid to go to gurney there for vacancy
then i walked around to find other vacancy
but this time i din ask for the vacancy
jus did some research that how many shops r finding promoters
quite many shops looking for sales assistant
"Nike, forever21, Guess, Aldo, MNG, Adidas, Googles, Levi's, Elle, Topshop, Liz Claiborne, Quiksilver .."
Many choices oh ..
I oso hope to fast fast start my work
then i could earn money myself
and could buy anythg i liked
wont think too much d
but jus hope omg wont suddenly brought his gf appear at my working place or queensbay any place or in my purview
i would collapse
hais .. sian sian sian and sian ..
do wad oso sian
think wad oso sian
eat wad oso sian
c wad oso sian
driving oso sian
wad wad wad .. oso sian ..
sometimes realli miss him
i gv myself 30 marks out of 100 marks
i veri stupid
still miss him
but sometime when i busy i wont miss him like last time d
i felt i would slowly 4get him
like when i busy for playing viwawa, in class, playing basketball ..
recently i joined for basketball as my co-cu activity
although that was not my favourite sport
but basketball OK la ..
i still could accept
jus veri hard for the practice only
after basketball, my whole body sure pain like hell
but i felt satisfy and enjoy, coz i could exercise more and increased my blood pressure
i had low blood pressure
this was my gym trainer's advice that i should exercise and getting stronger
i still rmb that day i went for the steam sauna room wif a tower only by without any jewelleries and clothing
inside veri blur, coz of the steam
my body and face get steam and wet all
i felt relax
wont think anythg d ..
but when i stopped those activities, i oso would think of him again
BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA .. !!!
he smsed me, said that he read my blog
he felt touch .. i din noe wad he touched
WEIRD .. ?? -.- ?
i was blur-ing
today i went to Queensbay to find vacancy
asked Adidas Heritage
she told me that i maybe nid to go to gurney there for vacancy
then i walked around to find other vacancy
but this time i din ask for the vacancy
jus did some research that how many shops r finding promoters
quite many shops looking for sales assistant
"Nike, forever21, Guess, Aldo, MNG, Adidas, Googles, Levi's, Elle, Topshop, Liz Claiborne, Quiksilver .."
Many choices oh ..
I oso hope to fast fast start my work
then i could earn money myself
and could buy anythg i liked
wont think too much d
but jus hope omg wont suddenly brought his gf appear at my working place or queensbay any place or in my purview
i would collapse
hais .. sian sian sian and sian ..
Sunday, October 12, 2008
LOVE
Handwritten Funky Graphics for MySpace
Handwritten Funky Graphics for MySpace
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Handwritten Funky Graphics for MySpace
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Sad Love Quotes for MySpace, Friendster & Hi5
Saturday, October 11, 2008
失望|希望
我知道其实他对我有点失望吧
我看回以前的日记
他有告诉过我
他希望我们俩可以读同一间大学
只是当时的我真的很没用
我想读下去
但是我每一科都很不明白
我不知老师在教什么
也不明白我所温习的
我真的很笨
如果老师可以教明白点
我可以再聪明点
也许现在我们可以在同一所大学了
不过我现在还是很高兴
我所选择的科目是我喜欢的
可以读回我喜欢的科目，我很开心
我希望我可以像我姐姐一样
读到master/professional
我不会让以前看衰我的人再看扁我一次
也不会再让以前对我有期望的人失望了
振作！
我看回以前的日记
他有告诉过我
他希望我们俩可以读同一间大学
只是当时的我真的很没用
我想读下去
但是我每一科都很不明白
我不知老师在教什么
也不明白我所温习的
我真的很笨
如果老师可以教明白点
我可以再聪明点
也许现在我们可以在同一所大学了
不过我现在还是很高兴
我所选择的科目是我喜欢的
可以读回我喜欢的科目，我很开心
我希望我可以像我姐姐一样
读到master/professional
我不会让以前看衰我的人再看扁我一次
也不会再让以前对我有期望的人失望了
振作！
useless
我真的很没用
为什么我还要想他？
他有什么好？
我每天告诉我自己
我不爱他了
他不值得我爱他
每天都在胡思乱想
每天都梦到我们在一起的时候
当时我们是高兴的
我跟他在一起真的很舒服
但天为什么要拆散我们？
可是现在不能酱子想了。
应该说：我要忘了他！忘了猪～
为什么我还要想他？
他有什么好？
我每天告诉我自己
我不爱他了
他不值得我爱他
每天都在胡思乱想
每天都梦到我们在一起的时候
当时我们是高兴的
我跟他在一起真的很舒服
但天为什么要拆散我们？
可是现在不能酱子想了。
应该说：我要忘了他！忘了猪～
Sunday, September 14, 2008
a boring but funny day
林峰- 爱不够
收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右 爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑後 能全然退後 你开心就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到後 或会走
这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
成全 衷心祝福然後 就放手
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
遥远是宇宙 静静在背後 去看守就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动 挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
成全 多舍不得仍然 是放手
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
放手 我的牵挂 找不到尽头
放手 期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许 爱很深厚 然而我早看得透
放手 至可拥有
Love&Honesty - 爱与诚
宝儿 - BoA
everyday everynight
darling love's in my heart
I'm waiting for you
let me see let me touch
baby tell me your dream
forever more
大きな 風の中
うずくまりながら
思ってた 何もかも
言える 人がいたならと
ちっぽけな
僕だから みんなそうだから
強いとこ それより
弱いとこ 結ぼう
そばにいて 怖がりもそう
恥ずかしいことじゃない
そして思うことは
こんな僕も生きられるってこと
sha na na
ひとりじゃきっと
歩いては行けないさ
一緒に 歩き続ける
君が僕をうめるよ
love is true
小さい声が
僕を強くするのさ
夢を叶える日まで
everlasting 永遠に君と 二人
everyday everynight
darling love's in my heart
forever more
届かない 伝わらない
でも手を伸ばすから
出来ないこと あるけど
乗り越えてみたい
何もかも 分かり合っても
満たされない心
人は わがままだね
ときにすべて嫌になるそれでも
sha na na
僕を癒す 君の瞳があるよ
もしも 見失ったら
導いてよその目で
空に星があるよに
海に波揺れるよに
深く それから 広く
見守って つかむから きっと
誰も ひとりじゃきっと
歩いては行けないさ
一緒に 歩き続ける
君が僕をうめるよ
sha na na
forever you are my dear
everytime I feel you within my heart
もしも 見失ったら
導いてよその目で
空に星があるよに
海に波揺れるよに
深くそれから広く
everlasting包み合おう きっと
everyday everynight
darling love's in my heart
I'm waiting for you,
let me see let me touch
baby tell me your dream
forever more
南拳媽媽- 下雨天
《優の良曲南搞小孩》
詞：梁心頤(Lara) 曲：張杰 編曲：洪敬堯
(Lara):
下雨天了怎么辦 我好想你
不敢打給你 我找不到原因
為什麽失眠的聲音 變得好熟悉
沉默的場景 做你的代替 陪我等雨停
期待讓人越來越沉溺
誰和我一樣等不到他的誰
想你我總在學會
寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚 一個人好累
怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜 怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑 才能夠有你的體貼
(Lara+張杰):
其實沒有我你分不出哪些 差別
結局還能多明顯
(Lara):
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉
希望大家支持南拳媽媽!
支持正版音樂！
南拳會館力挺南拳
編輯：南拳會館_λ=傑
(Lara):
氣氛讓人越來越疲憊
誰和我一樣等不到他的誰
想你我總在學會
寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚 一個人好累
怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜 怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑 才能夠有你的體貼
(Lara+張杰):
其實沒有我你分不出哪些 差別
結局還能多明顯
(Lara):
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉
怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜 怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑 才能夠有你的體貼
(Lara+張杰):
其實沒有我你分不出哪些 差別
結局還能多明顯
(Lara):
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉
楊丞琳-遇上愛-04.左邊
總是 忍不住寂寞掉下 眼淚
你才會給安慰
擔心 短暫的晴天
隨時都可能 被陰霾收回
等待 有機會最壞也最 甜美
我樂觀卻疲憊
因為 太怕失去你
所以連快樂裡 都裝滿傷悲
你不曾發覺
你總是用右手 牽著我
但是心卻跳動 在左邊
你和我之間的遙遠
永遠隔著親切 愛少的可憐
伸出右手
想陪著你 向前走
感受 你愛我的心跳在左邊
那麼深深 愛你的我
相信你會了解
總在 埋怨過你的冷漠
之後 又急著說抱歉
彷彿 向疏遠的你
乞求 一點體貼
都是我不對
結果 有可能最美也最 可悲
我做好了準備
也許太自由的你
心裡面那個家 誰也不能回
你不曾發覺
你總是用右手 牽著我
但是心卻跳動 在左邊
你和我之間的遙遠
永遠隔著親切 愛少的可憐
伸出右手
想陪著你 向前走
感受 你愛我的心跳在左邊
那麼深深 愛你的我
相信你會了解
我一直相信 總有一天
你會用左手 牽著我走向明天
未來很遙遠 卻會實現
心在同一邊 就能夠
聽見 你說的 那句
我愛你
你不曾發覺
你總是用右手 牽著我
但是心卻跳動 在左邊
你和我之間的遙遠
永遠隔著親切 愛少的可憐
伸出右手
想陪著你 向前走
感受 你愛我的心跳在左邊
那麼深深 愛你的我
你一定 看的見
all this song veri suit my feel oh
especially of 林峰- 爱不够
b fren is better ?
after watched the 溏心风暴2-家好月圆
i noe i mus not so stubborn
today my mood quite ok
bought 2 clothes from my aunt
quite nice
nx time jus capture the new clothes .. hoho
then we went to batu maung took our dinner
scenery from there quite nice too .. veri beautiful
my 2 little cousin sisters kip capture pic wif me
nth d .. nx time jus upload pic
hehe
收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右 爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑後 能全然退後 你开心就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到後 或会走
这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
成全 衷心祝福然後 就放手
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
遥远是宇宙 静静在背後 去看守就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动 挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
成全 多舍不得仍然 是放手
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
放手 我的牵挂 找不到尽头
放手 期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许 爱很深厚 然而我早看得透
放手 至可拥有
Love&Honesty - 爱与诚
宝儿 - BoA
everyday everynight
darling love's in my heart
I'm waiting for you
let me see let me touch
baby tell me your dream
forever more
大きな 風の中
うずくまりながら
思ってた 何もかも
言える 人がいたならと
ちっぽけな
僕だから みんなそうだから
強いとこ それより
弱いとこ 結ぼう
そばにいて 怖がりもそう
恥ずかしいことじゃない
そして思うことは
こんな僕も生きられるってこと
sha na na
ひとりじゃきっと
歩いては行けないさ
一緒に 歩き続ける
君が僕をうめるよ
love is true
小さい声が
僕を強くするのさ
夢を叶える日まで
everlasting 永遠に君と 二人
everyday everynight
darling love's in my heart
forever more
届かない 伝わらない
でも手を伸ばすから
出来ないこと あるけど
乗り越えてみたい
何もかも 分かり合っても
満たされない心
人は わがままだね
ときにすべて嫌になるそれでも
sha na na
僕を癒す 君の瞳があるよ
もしも 見失ったら
導いてよその目で
空に星があるよに
海に波揺れるよに
深く それから 広く
見守って つかむから きっと
誰も ひとりじゃきっと
歩いては行けないさ
一緒に 歩き続ける
君が僕をうめるよ
sha na na
forever you are my dear
everytime I feel you within my heart
もしも 見失ったら
導いてよその目で
空に星があるよに
海に波揺れるよに
深くそれから広く
everlasting包み合おう きっと
everyday everynight
darling love's in my heart
I'm waiting for you,
let me see let me touch
baby tell me your dream
forever more
南拳媽媽- 下雨天
《優の良曲南搞小孩》
詞：梁心頤(Lara) 曲：張杰 編曲：洪敬堯
(Lara):
下雨天了怎么辦 我好想你
不敢打給你 我找不到原因
為什麽失眠的聲音 變得好熟悉
沉默的場景 做你的代替 陪我等雨停
期待讓人越來越沉溺
誰和我一樣等不到他的誰
想你我總在學會
寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚 一個人好累
怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜 怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑 才能夠有你的體貼
(Lara+張杰):
其實沒有我你分不出哪些 差別
結局還能多明顯
(Lara):
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉
希望大家支持南拳媽媽!
支持正版音樂！
南拳會館力挺南拳
編輯：南拳會館_λ=傑
(Lara):
氣氛讓人越來越疲憊
誰和我一樣等不到他的誰
想你我總在學會
寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚 一個人好累
怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜 怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑 才能夠有你的體貼
(Lara+張杰):
其實沒有我你分不出哪些 差別
結局還能多明顯
(Lara):
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉
怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜 怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑 才能夠有你的體貼
(Lara+張杰):
其實沒有我你分不出哪些 差別
結局還能多明顯
(Lara):
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉
楊丞琳-遇上愛-04.左邊
總是 忍不住寂寞掉下 眼淚
你才會給安慰
擔心 短暫的晴天
隨時都可能 被陰霾收回
等待 有機會最壞也最 甜美
我樂觀卻疲憊
因為 太怕失去你
所以連快樂裡 都裝滿傷悲
你不曾發覺
你總是用右手 牽著我
但是心卻跳動 在左邊
你和我之間的遙遠
永遠隔著親切 愛少的可憐
伸出右手
想陪著你 向前走
感受 你愛我的心跳在左邊
那麼深深 愛你的我
相信你會了解
總在 埋怨過你的冷漠
之後 又急著說抱歉
彷彿 向疏遠的你
乞求 一點體貼
都是我不對
結果 有可能最美也最 可悲
我做好了準備
也許太自由的你
心裡面那個家 誰也不能回
你不曾發覺
你總是用右手 牽著我
但是心卻跳動 在左邊
你和我之間的遙遠
永遠隔著親切 愛少的可憐
伸出右手
想陪著你 向前走
感受 你愛我的心跳在左邊
那麼深深 愛你的我
相信你會了解
我一直相信 總有一天
你會用左手 牽著我走向明天
未來很遙遠 卻會實現
心在同一邊 就能夠
聽見 你說的 那句
我愛你
你不曾發覺
你總是用右手 牽著我
但是心卻跳動 在左邊
你和我之間的遙遠
永遠隔著親切 愛少的可憐
伸出右手
想陪著你 向前走
感受 你愛我的心跳在左邊
那麼深深 愛你的我
你一定 看的見
all this song veri suit my feel oh
especially of 林峰- 爱不够
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
meaningful !
is time to let me put down le bahb fren is better ?
after watched the 溏心风暴2-家好月圆
i noe i mus not so stubborn
today my mood quite ok
bought 2 clothes from my aunt
quite nice
nx time jus capture the new clothes .. hoho
then we went to batu maung took our dinner
scenery from there quite nice too .. veri beautiful
my 2 little cousin sisters kip capture pic wif me
nth d .. nx time jus upload pic
hehe
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
3rd day
动也不敢动 走也不敢走
说也不敢说 我在干什么
往前又退后 想走却又留
你笑着看我 说我没有用
你总不在乎我需要的是什么
说走就走 洒脱
我像个不倒翁 去却又回头
被你玩弄还笑自己懦弱
我是不倒不倒翁 你推都不会动
再哭也没有用 没办法留住你一分钟
不倒不倒翁 你推都不会动
im veri upset
my life become upside down
slp late, wk up late
after wk up nth to eat
sometime cook mee, sometime jus drink milo
eat mee until more hair drop d
drink milo going more thin d
after wk up will become veri bored and depressed
sometime my tear oso will suddenly fall down
coz i veri miss omg
but omg fails omg's beloved
canot b 4given
noon, i nided to fetch my cousin from her tuition
i rode my motor to fetch her
coz i knew the half way of the road will veri jam
that time was 5.15pm or 5.20pm d
i tot i would late to there
so i rushed to the tuition place
and the speed of my driving was 100km/j
i felt i abit crazy d
or actually i was not coz of late jus drove fast
but was sad, so i drove fast ?
i duno again ..
when i rode my motor rapidly
my tear tried to fall down again
but i wont let it drop
i wanted myself to b happy always
4get omg 4eva and eva
if not i will hv the sadness and umbrage for 4eva and eva
i canot tahan wif this type of life d
who asked me to come to pg study at that time ? i canot regret now d
hais ......
Monday, September 1, 2008
miss a 'no-hearted' 2nd day
ytd midnite i watched my drama 'tang xin feng bao 2 jia hao yue yuan'
i watched and cried
coz the drama realli veri touching
i watched til 4.30am
finally i decided to slp d
when i lie on bed, i kip felt dizzy again
sumore dizzy than that day
i hv no choice but nid to slp sideways
jus realli feel not too dizzy
but then i suddenly cried and cried non-stop
i canot control my tear
my tear kip falling down
i tot y i will cry
coz of the drama again ?
i tot properly
i felt maybe was i watching drama, i cried
then i maybe long time din realli cried til so sad
and when i decided to leave omg
i jus knew that day i said til veri brave
i could leave omg easily
i jus cried a little bit
but actuali i still veri veri reluctant to leave omg
y omg's replied and action always so cruel ?
omg tat day can 'ku' when phoned me
and made me felt i so cruel and 4gave omg for my softhearted
then actuali my decision to stop contacted and met omg brk d
i still went out wif omg
went out wif omg like real couple
i veri heartache
y i so softheaded ? i asked myself
ytd midnite i cried, many thought passing thru my mind
then i cried out
i was veri hurted and broken-hearted
y omg could disturb my life
AND
y omg could pat omg's butt and walked away like that ?
i couldn't understand !
i nid someone's hug to cry, i was so sad
in fact, i dun wanna to write blog d
originally i wrote this blog oso coz of omg
i wanna let omg noe wad was my heart thinking
and my character dun let me to tok wif omg in phone about my heart thinking
so i felt blog was easier
and could write longer
i did not noe wad to write d
enuf for now
blog realli could calm down me
i love BLOGGING ~!
Saturday, August 30, 2008
life like a show
jusnow i watched finish 'tang xin feng bao 1'
quite many part of the drama, i felt sad
i wanna cry, but im not
much feeling suddenly appear from my soul, brain, heart ..
maybe my omg and I r in the same situation wif the drama
maybe ..
maybe ..
will think myself, izit im think too much ?
or coz of my geist ?
i drop down my tear
i suddenly feel veri suffer to tgt wif him
inside the drama, the actor said a sentense,
'we jus tok wif frens, anyhow find a job to do,actually wont reduce our unhappiness so easy ..
but actually is we write a diary or blog jus can decrease our stress, depressed ..'
im agree wif him
i noe that nobody can share wif me
i duno y, im not so noe myself
even my best fren oso canot ..
everytime after write the blog, i will relief and my mood will become better
i kip falling of tear while i write this blog
actually i duno i still love him onot
but i noe when i brk wif him that time
i was not so sad
i duno was i no feeling d ? got use to it d ? or my heart to him lessen d ?
im not so sure
i jus noe i still will veri miss him
i duno y now he cant accept to sms to each other wif 'miss u, love u, muacks ..'
i everyday so miss him, but i oso nided to tell him,'k la, u go do ur thg bah ..'
actualli this replied veri 'fake'
but i canot no say so
if not he will think im veri noisy or disturb him
last time, he can
maybe last time he in forced ? ho .. ho .. ( forced smile ) duno ?
actually he nvr say the 3 words,
' I LOVE U '
sincerely again for this time tgt
jus one time at PJ, we walked back home, he suddenly said that 3 words
i was touched by him
he 1st time said that 3 words !
now, im veri fluster
i duno wad decision shld i make
i got think to realli realli brk for long time ago d
but i noe i realli realli veri reluctant to brk
in the drama, the actor tgt wif 2 gals in same time
after the actress noe, she was so sad and brk wif him
but they finally tgt back again, she 4gave him
after that brk again coz of she noe that
'the gal'
that tgt wif him is her best fren
she canot accept it, so she choose to brk and no longer tgt d
no matter how good he treat her, but coz of one time of blunder, it is canot b 4give
if is me, i admit im oso the same
even we tgt veri sweet d, but actually my heart sometimes will suspect him
izit he at another place got new gf ? fall in love to other gal ?
last time i oso got suspect him
when im not at penang, izit he still contact to his ex ? find her ?
my heart is veri veri veri pain
coz of he lied me and nvr tell me sth that b a gf nided to noe
so i suspect him few time
im not dunwan trust him
i noe couple shld believe to each other
but wad he did and wad his action, i still can believe him ?
i duno how to describe the feeling
i noe .. im stupid
i fall in love to a guy that i shld not love and maybe he not so love me ?
i oso feel weird
we b couple
y we canot honest to other and if got anythg jus tell to each other ?
i still nid to write a blog to tell him ? i canot understand
r we tgt ? im in suffering
i noe .. sometime some decision nid to make and relationship nid to make it clear
i got think ..
after 2 yrs is my degree course
i sure will leave penang ..
i better dun be reluctant to leave d
i mus leave it free and easy
i duno wad my omg's think
i noe i veri noe him
but sometime i oso duno wad he was thinking and he nvr tell me too
i dun like he always kip kip kip in his heart
i duno am i his gf
when i said,'no contact, brk ..'
he always noe to say,'respect u,respect ur decision'
i hv enuf of this thg
i dunwan delay and ignore this thg again
i nid to do 'final decision' d
hais
i gona slp at 4am (30/8 midnite)
continue type again ......
(30/8 morning)
wk up at around 12pm+
i feel tired
my body tired, my heart oso tired
i realli feel we not couple
i everyday scare he at other place will tgt wif other gal
coz he lied me many times d
always suddenly gv me a big 'surprise'
let me suddenly noe he went to genting wif his frens and ex gf
i noe maybe they nth, jus fren, jus bcoz of his fren's gf got go, so his ex gf sure folo them
i oso noe he scare i will dislike and unhappy
so he kip from let me noe
jus told me his fren organised this trip
got his frens and his fren's gf
i better dun go tgt, coz i duno them at all
but after that he oso posted in friendster, how can i duno ?
who am i ? i canot angry ? i canot jealous ? i canot say her bad thg ?
i duno ..
his fren's gf can go, but y i canot ?
if not he posted the pic they capture at genting
i wont noe this thg 4eva and eva
im not so small gas, until now still take out this topic
but he realli hurt me much
that time i saw the pic, my heart realli pain realli pain
y he canot thinking of my feeling ?
he let me noe earlier will b better than i noe by myself and so suddenly
i damn hurted !
and this yr valentine's day, we celebrated tgt
1 day, his ex gf phoned to him while he was bathing
i saw it, sumore still got pic
i duno that time he got put my pic onot
but i noe after that i asked him,'if i help u to ans the phone, wad u think ?'
he directly told me, he would veri angry coz he nid his private
i suddenly veri sad
i told my cousin wad he replied me, i now feel that time
my tok realli reluctantly
actually i shocked he gv me the ans
but coz of that time, i was celebrating my cousin's bday
i could not sad at that day, i could not cry, if not my cousin would sad for me and cried tgt
so i jus try to ignore that
i realli duno which part we still count as couple
except now, when we went out, we holded hand .. he will hug me ..
i noe that when we go out realli like couple
but so wad
like that only count as couple
but in real, sms, phone ..
i wad oso dun dare to tell him, scare he angry me, scare he dislike, scare he dunwan me
i veri concede to him d
i duno y he still not satisfied
lied me one time and one time
dunwan me one time and one time
i realli tired d
i asked him,'u believe me i will do such "stupid thg", since i so suffer ?'
i believe if im not a Pietist
i maybe will ?
coz last time my mum scolded and beat me, i realli used a pair of scissors to hurt myself
i noe he will scare i will realli do so
coz after my cousin's incident
i noe that guys will dun like gals to do so, they cant accept it
so i nvr think again
and wont do too
but i realli sad, depress, sian, no mood, hot-tempered, hurted ..
little by little, i feel veri suffer and tired
i duno y ppl paktoh, ppl happy
but i paktoh like not so happy
maybe i realli nid to gv up
im tired
i dunwan continue d
maybe gv up is a big decision, but i noe i will recover soon
coz for this moment, i still maybe can 4get about him and his thg
i scare longer and longer, i will more miss him and canot 4get him
i duno y .. since i so love him, i still nid to mk this decision to leave him
but nvm, i jus nid to noe in front of me is my future
i nid to study hard
i canot let him effect my study d
i dunwan regret like last time that i studied in form 6 d
i noe i will reluctant to do so, but i believe that i sure can do it
BELIEVE myself is veri important .. !
i brk wif him many times, so this time i canot let myself regret d ..
quite many part of the drama, i felt sad
i wanna cry, but im not
much feeling suddenly appear from my soul, brain, heart ..
maybe my omg and I r in the same situation wif the drama
maybe ..
maybe ..
will think myself, izit im think too much ?
or coz of my geist ?
i drop down my tear
i suddenly feel veri suffer to tgt wif him
inside the drama, the actor said a sentense,
'we jus tok wif frens, anyhow find a job to do,actually wont reduce our unhappiness so easy ..
but actually is we write a diary or blog jus can decrease our stress, depressed ..'
im agree wif him
i noe that nobody can share wif me
i duno y, im not so noe myself
even my best fren oso canot ..
everytime after write the blog, i will relief and my mood will become better
i kip falling of tear while i write this blog
actually i duno i still love him onot
but i noe when i brk wif him that time
i was not so sad
i duno was i no feeling d ? got use to it d ? or my heart to him lessen d ?
im not so sure
i jus noe i still will veri miss him
i duno y now he cant accept to sms to each other wif 'miss u, love u, muacks ..'
i everyday so miss him, but i oso nided to tell him,'k la, u go do ur thg bah ..'
actualli this replied veri 'fake'
but i canot no say so
if not he will think im veri noisy or disturb him
last time, he can
maybe last time he in forced ? ho .. ho .. ( forced smile ) duno ?
actually he nvr say the 3 words,
' I LOVE U '
sincerely again for this time tgt
jus one time at PJ, we walked back home, he suddenly said that 3 words
i was touched by him
he 1st time said that 3 words !
now, im veri fluster
i duno wad decision shld i make
i got think to realli realli brk for long time ago d
but i noe i realli realli veri reluctant to brk
in the drama, the actor tgt wif 2 gals in same time
after the actress noe, she was so sad and brk wif him
but they finally tgt back again, she 4gave him
after that brk again coz of she noe that
'the gal'
that tgt wif him is her best fren
she canot accept it, so she choose to brk and no longer tgt d
no matter how good he treat her, but coz of one time of blunder, it is canot b 4give
if is me, i admit im oso the same
even we tgt veri sweet d, but actually my heart sometimes will suspect him
izit he at another place got new gf ? fall in love to other gal ?
last time i oso got suspect him
when im not at penang, izit he still contact to his ex ? find her ?
my heart is veri veri veri pain
coz of he lied me and nvr tell me sth that b a gf nided to noe
so i suspect him few time
im not dunwan trust him
i noe couple shld believe to each other
but wad he did and wad his action, i still can believe him ?
i duno how to describe the feeling
i noe .. im stupid
i fall in love to a guy that i shld not love and maybe he not so love me ?
i oso feel weird
we b couple
y we canot honest to other and if got anythg jus tell to each other ?
i still nid to write a blog to tell him ? i canot understand
r we tgt ? im in suffering
i noe .. sometime some decision nid to make and relationship nid to make it clear
i got think ..
after 2 yrs is my degree course
i sure will leave penang ..
i better dun be reluctant to leave d
i mus leave it free and easy
i duno wad my omg's think
i noe i veri noe him
but sometime i oso duno wad he was thinking and he nvr tell me too
i dun like he always kip kip kip in his heart
i duno am i his gf
when i said,'no contact, brk ..'
he always noe to say,'respect u,respect ur decision'
i hv enuf of this thg
i dunwan delay and ignore this thg again
i nid to do 'final decision' d
hais
i gona slp at 4am (30/8 midnite)
continue type again ......
(30/8 morning)
wk up at around 12pm+
i feel tired
my body tired, my heart oso tired
i realli feel we not couple
i everyday scare he at other place will tgt wif other gal
coz he lied me many times d
always suddenly gv me a big 'surprise'
let me suddenly noe he went to genting wif his frens and ex gf
i noe maybe they nth, jus fren, jus bcoz of his fren's gf got go, so his ex gf sure folo them
i oso noe he scare i will dislike and unhappy
so he kip from let me noe
jus told me his fren organised this trip
got his frens and his fren's gf
i better dun go tgt, coz i duno them at all
but after that he oso posted in friendster, how can i duno ?
who am i ? i canot angry ? i canot jealous ? i canot say her bad thg ?
i duno ..
his fren's gf can go, but y i canot ?
if not he posted the pic they capture at genting
i wont noe this thg 4eva and eva
im not so small gas, until now still take out this topic
but he realli hurt me much
that time i saw the pic, my heart realli pain realli pain
y he canot thinking of my feeling ?
he let me noe earlier will b better than i noe by myself and so suddenly
i damn hurted !
and this yr valentine's day, we celebrated tgt
1 day, his ex gf phoned to him while he was bathing
i saw it, sumore still got pic
i duno that time he got put my pic onot
but i noe after that i asked him,'if i help u to ans the phone, wad u think ?'
he directly told me, he would veri angry coz he nid his private
i suddenly veri sad
i told my cousin wad he replied me, i now feel that time
my tok realli reluctantly
actually i shocked he gv me the ans
but coz of that time, i was celebrating my cousin's bday
i could not sad at that day, i could not cry, if not my cousin would sad for me and cried tgt
so i jus try to ignore that
i realli duno which part we still count as couple
except now, when we went out, we holded hand .. he will hug me ..
i noe that when we go out realli like couple
but so wad
like that only count as couple
but in real, sms, phone ..
i wad oso dun dare to tell him, scare he angry me, scare he dislike, scare he dunwan me
i veri concede to him d
i duno y he still not satisfied
lied me one time and one time
dunwan me one time and one time
i realli tired d
i asked him,'u believe me i will do such "stupid thg", since i so suffer ?'
i believe if im not a Pietist
i maybe will ?
coz last time my mum scolded and beat me, i realli used a pair of scissors to hurt myself
i noe he will scare i will realli do so
coz after my cousin's incident
i noe that guys will dun like gals to do so, they cant accept it
so i nvr think again
and wont do too
but i realli sad, depress, sian, no mood, hot-tempered, hurted ..
little by little, i feel veri suffer and tired
i duno y ppl paktoh, ppl happy
but i paktoh like not so happy
maybe i realli nid to gv up
im tired
i dunwan continue d
maybe gv up is a big decision, but i noe i will recover soon
coz for this moment, i still maybe can 4get about him and his thg
i scare longer and longer, i will more miss him and canot 4get him
i duno y .. since i so love him, i still nid to mk this decision to leave him
but nvm, i jus nid to noe in front of me is my future
i nid to study hard
i canot let him effect my study d
i dunwan regret like last time that i studied in form 6 d
i noe i will reluctant to do so, but i believe that i sure can do it
BELIEVE myself is veri important .. !
i brk wif him many times, so this time i canot let myself regret d ..
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
no mood
ytd my mood still ok
coz ytd was public holiday for election, so i could slp til veri late
i wk up at around 11am
then on9 msn
kean hui asked me wad i was going to do later
i told him that i maybe would study at home or outside(McD)
he told me that he oso wana to study tgt wif me if i chose to go McD
so i confirmed wif him later
then i on9 and ate sth
i finally decided to went McD for study
my cousin said she didn't wan to go for her tuition d
she wanted to study at home
so i no nid to fetch her later
then i asked kean hui to come my hse fetch me, coz i realli lazy wanted to drive
he went to hamid khan wait me, so i drove to there and brought him
then i parked back my car on spot and he fetched me to McD
we went back home at 7pm
then my uncle asked us to go tesco tgt
my 2 cousins actually didn't wan
but after i told them i wanna go, they jus decided to go
so at tesco, we walked and walked
my cousin finally bought the chocolates she wan and tQ me bcoz i walked pass the chocolate department
if not she couldn't found whr was the chocolate
'zzz
wad's the reason she thx to me! lols
i captured them from behind, hehe ..
'look like my little cousin was playing wif the trolly'
'after back from tesco, i captured one xD'
then today ..
i wanna wk up in the morning, but abit sian
then my fren--stella sms me and told me she did'nt wan to attend practical class d
so i oso didn't wanna go
i slpt until 11am again, lols
on the way to tarc
i emergency break at the traffic light of greenlane
swt, damn dangerous!
coz that time i abit rush
then i drove quite fast
but suddenly i saw traffic light was turn to yellow
so i quickly stepped on break
then my thg all flied into front
my japanese bread oso break d
made my car dirty T___T
after reached tarc, i walked into comp lab
in class, i abit bored
coz i sitted alone wif my fren's fren
bcoz of my fren that always sit wif me din come
but nvm, i could concentrate on lecturer's teaching
after class, i ate wif my fren at canteen
then i drove back to home
on the way, got a car drove veri near me at the batu ferringgi road
that driver realli crazy
he din c me drove veri fast? he still wanted to get over me
i omos knocked into his car d
that time i realli scared if i realli bumped into his car
hais
after back home, my cousin asked me that could i 2mr fetch her to cut her hair
i damn sian d
she suddenly asked me that
i directly rejected her
i told her that i'll going to absent for my IT class to fetch her back home d
she still wanted me to fetch her to 'hair impression', prangin mall to cut hair
i could not understand her
she how old? y always went to such expensive hair saloon to cut hair?
she jus a PMR student, y dun jus go to the normal shop to cut hair?
i veri veri sian
so i went to slp
hais
actually i realli veri miss my omgwad i msg to him, i realli hope that my omg oso can reply me wif a 'muacks, love u, miss u..'
but he nvr, so i oso dunwan to tell him lo
im gal mah, sure shame to say so
and i always msg him wif 'muacks, miss u, sayang..'
i duno he like onot, he nvr tell me too
hais
i hope that he can wad oso tell mecoz im not the worm inside his stomach
i can veri noe him.. understand him..
but sometimes he nvr tell me, how i noe?
like that day he actually wanted to go to Tesco, E-gates there bought sth
but coz of i told him, i nth to buy
then he jus said,'we back home bah'
i after that jus knew he that time got abit disappointed
i hope that we can honest and candor to other
then we jus count as couple
if we duno each other, still r couple?
sob T_________________T
hais
'after back to home, anyhow capture one =[ fake face, sob'
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